When I Dance I feel the breeze coming from the horizen

I've been wanting and not wanting to blog lately. Things have been good and crazy. I signed my contract and know 78% for sure what school I'll be teaching at. Scary. I never thought this moment would come forth. I've been looking for apartments, which has been frustrating. I decided where I want to live though.

I'm going to focus on finding a place in Chesapeake, VA. I didn't want to live in Norfolk (big city) or Virginia Beach (expensive) and Chesapeake seems to be a nice area and would only make a 20 minute commute for me. The school is really nice it's called Azalea Gardens Middle School and its in a lovely area of Norfolk, right across from a huge botanical garden.

So with my contract signed I have a lot of things to do in order to get my license in Virginia. One being waiting patiently to receive my Pennsylvania license.

So my roommate Sarah is visiting next week. I am really excited. It's been hard this summer with the thought looming over me that we may never live together and see each other every day again. It's been hard cos she is amazing, wonderful and my best friend.

This summer I guess I have been learning about true friends and the character of people. Ha some of this has encouraged me of my move down south. Not that this is the "reason" why I am moving, ha, I'm not stupid. I love my family to death and would do anything for them. Besides my family and Kt (best friend forever) I don't have any true strong connections worth staying for. Don't get me wrong I still have friends from home and other people I love dearly. Yet, I just don't feel that I fit well in the lives of people here and don't feel strong connection with them.

Who knows why, but I guess you could say I feel disconnected. No matter how hard I try and how much I push out of my comfort zone, I just ain't feeling it. Ha, not to be like an old complaining lady. In a way it's a good thing, because it has helped me to go on this search which has landed me in Virginia. It has been funny talking to people. For the most part the ones who truly love and know me are encouraging me. People who pretend are not, even though it's nice people are taking the time to "try."

Now that I'm on a down topic. I really miss college. I miss being surrounded by people who care and are okay with just sitting around talking, encouraging, and sharing with one another. I miss my community and feel like I really need to find that again. I know it will never be the same, but that is not necessarily a bad thing. One thing I am excited for is to find a church! Since going to college I haven't really had a church and first had the feeling of being disconnected from my church. It was hard when everyone around me in college received notes, packages, and calls from their home church family. While I did get this from some folks from Lavelle it ended after my freshman year and this is understandable, since my family stopped going there.

Random new topic: I've been reading a lot in a sad attempt to leave more books at home and get rid of some books. I love reading. I just read the Time Traveler's Wife. me being me I cried at the end. Not because it was sad, just because I was done reading this beautiful book. I'm always sad when I'm done with a book, but I never cried before. I just really get into books, which is why I'm known to stay up all night until I finish one.

So on a positive note. I am really excited for my new job. I feel like it is the best choice I could have made. I really think this job will be a great stepping stone towards my goals in life. Even my secret goals, at the time only reserved for my heart, seem to be somehow slowly being reached.

One really happy amazing thing about living in Virginia: Ashley! ha. I'll be close to her again which is good, because she is such an amazing friend/person. Well I'm going to head to bed. Well actually watch John and Kate Plus 8 and then fall asleep.

toodles. Ha, who says toodles. I guess people in high class society would, not me. Ha, Jon found out how much I'll be getting paid and now he thinks I'm rich. He is sadly misinformed. I guess that's the nice part of being young: ignorance.

When I dance I feel the pressure

This has been a crazy random week. Was in Richmond, Virginia at the beginning. Haven't been doing too much. Went to Chinese tonight with the church group and then to Rodney's to watch a movie. Who knows what tomorrow will hold. I'll probaly take Teddy for a walk, because I have been tricking him into thinking I'd take him for a walk just so he gets excited. Then I crush his dreams, man I'm a bully.

So I did something crazy. I took the job in Virginia. It's weird now thinking about what i have to do to get ready for my classroom and students. ha. Of course I'm nervous and think about it all the time. I'm just putting my trust in God and going with the flow right now. It's scary, but as Sarah told me, well I don't remember but it had something to do with amazing things are usually scary at first. ha, I love my best friend dearly. ok. Well The Colbert Report is on so I should watch.


My gram and Sarah. bffs!

When I Dance the world claps

This is going to be a crazy busy week indeed. I have the bridal shower to get ready for, my future to plan, my brother's graduation to celebrate, Elma's yardsale to prepare, and things to learn. Well not too much else is going on, just constant stressing out.

Things have been good though, good, just busy. I'm going to try on my bridesmaid dress in a few hours, I dread it. Hopefully it will fit and not look horrible on me. hopefully.

Ok, I'm going to go try to do something productive.

much love.I love my friends!