choclate rain.

So, it's been a pretty stressful time lately... just lots of things going on and I wish I could fast forward and be done with it. Some really good things are happening but it seems I can't even bring myself to truly enjoy them...ugh, some days I don't know what is wrong with me... But I did find out something amazing today, which makes me happy and proud.

So this Wednesday I'm going to go do something I never in a million years thought I would do!! gasp! It's to racy for this blog though :)

Okay life move over...here I come. Wow, I just realized there's only 12 more days until my birthday!! <3

I wish mosquitos suck fat, not blood...

cos I have a mosquito bite! :0)

Wow, I can't believe it's Mother's Day again! Just seem like last year it was Mother's Day and I was at Ashley's house teasing her hair out to look like Diana Ross. oh the memories.

It's completely true time goes by so fast after you graduate college....speaking of college. I guess I got into grad school, ha. I only knew because the college computer tech people sent me an e-mail telling me how to set up my school e-mail account.

So, even though I am completely unmotivated....I should start looking at a class to take I guess.
So I have an IEP to write, which is why I'm blogging because you know I like to waste time when I have things to do...which is why grad school scares me!! oh well, might as well do it and get it over with, so I can get paid some more green.

ok, I guess I will get ready to do some work for real. peace and beans:0)

Walking in a winter wonder land

I don't know why but I keep thinking about Christmas. It's just such a nice peaceful time you know. Today was kinda a rough day at school and encouraging at the same time. God never ceases to amaze ma, in how much he shows me and lets me grow each day. Can I just say how thankful I am for the lovely spring weather!

 

So else has been going on you ask? Well last Saturday my best buddy and I went to Washington D.C. We went to the museum of American History, which is always a fun time! I love history, just something cool about knowing where you came from and how far we have all come. There's just something really encouraging about that. And it was a lovely short weekend with SK

So last week I was a lazy bum who did nothing….this week is seeming to shape out the same way, ha. Guess there's always next week right?

Every since I've been home from spring break Dwight has been following me around like a sick puppy…. Everywhere I go. Right now he is sitting on my desk watching me type this, silly cat. Who would have thought I'd ever give a cat my heart…not me.

This weekend should be a fun and busy one, with SK gracing me with her presence again J Playing some BUNCO for the first time Saturday night, which should be interesting. Some of Dana's friends are playing, and Sarah, and hopefully dearest Ashley will come too.

Okay, well I guess I should go focus the rest of my attention on House, showering, and then on sleeping possibly. Okay much love to everyone, which is really just Sarah and Jonnie.

You're so gay and you don't even like boys!

Jennifer Knapp is gay! I kinda like it... I mean people put "Christian' artists on pedestals all they time. Well, hello people, they are human and sin too! :0)
I'm still excited for her new CD and someone should buy me Sandra McCrackin's new CD, while we're on it. ha.

So, I have done nothing productive the past 3 days, but that's how I always am after breaks...must be some sickness I can blame this on...lupus?

I wish I could go leaps and bounds...but the reality is that I just can't...


Lots to worry about, but it's not Wednesday yet

easy on the grass

There's only 55 days left of school?!?! When the heck did this happen? sheesh. I feel like I just graduated college...Where has time gone.


So I have to write an IEP tonight...if it's anything like the last one I'll wait 11 to start...ha. Sometimes I'm so insanely ridiculous.... why I waste so much time and find doing silly little things worth my time is beyond me.

I had a nice weekend which ended with me making a huge investment, that I never thought I'd make. But it'll be worth it in the end. ha :)

I'm really excited for spring break, one week of business but at least it won't be school stuff.

It's funny and amazing how God takes even our silliest little worries or in securities and makes us feel better. Like I know this is random but seriously Monday and Tuesday I've been noticing when I smile my gums stick out and I feel like a big dweeb. I don't know why I just noticed or why it started bugging me. Then Wednesday came. Then a new friend had these nice words to say, "Well, I don't think I've meet you before. But I know I've seen you, well at least your beautiful smile. You have one of the best smiles ever." Considering this was the first time I meet this person and they didn't know my current silly thoughts, this was all God. It just reminds me how God doesn't take care of just our big huge life changing decisions, he takes care of even our littlest worries. Because he is amazing and all powerful!

I've really been trying to push myself lately to be all I can be. No I'm not joining or advertising for the army. Sometimes I know I'm just so complacent and well lazy. Yeah my life is good, but it could be great if I put in more effort. So I've been thinking about what is something I would never ever ever do in my whole entire life. Well, it may be silly, but I've thought it. And I've been praying that one day I'll do it, enjoy it, and do it some more. :)

Okay, well I must get ready for TNL. We're almost done with 1 Corinthians. Speaking of almost being done. I'm also almost done with my VAAPs for work, which has been a huge blessing and weight lifted off my shoulders. God definintly is good, very very good.

I like big...

So another weekend come and almost gone :( Ha. Is it sad that when I hang out with someone people that I spend some of that time just wishing it was someone else. Maybe somewhat evil, but just true, I just miss the people I love all the time.

So this will be an amazingly busy week. CBI's every day, Krispy Kreme's Thursday. Meetings and pushing the VAAPs more and more. Ugh, I will be the happiest person ever when March is over. For the record that is a fact.

love baby love

Happy Valentine's Day suckers! I had a lovely Valentine's Day with two people I love to death!! It was just what I needed to help push away the winter blues. Which keep sneaking back up on me :/ I got to go whale watching, which was on my list! :) we had a fun fun time indeed.

So what else is new? hmm, not much. I had to miss work on Friday which has made me feel crazy! I kinda got far behind on doing a project for work and it makes me nervous. I know I can do it but for some reason I'm just slacking on starting and completing it.

Lately, I've been kinda feeling that I give a lot to other people and they could care less about me. It makes me really sad, not going to lie. Just feel like I'd give up everything for some people and they could care less about me or my feelings. Just saying.

Well I really need to get started on my project. Gotta go Gotta go Gotta go Right now.

Oh, Lent starts Wednesday! I'm thinking of giving up fast food for 40 days. I hope I can do it!!

snowy days

so it snowed like 9-10 inches on Saturday. And today is Tuesday and we still don't have school! ha. Kinda crazy.... but I did get a lot done and cleaned up a bit. Today I'm being a dreamer. The things on my list (that I seriously sat down and wrote last night!)" Shower, breakfast, thrift store, gym, grocery shopping, gas, post office, bank, dishes, put together new bed, go through and get rid of clothes, NCIS, Biggest Loser, Pay Cox bill. That's my list. Already showered so that's one thing to cross off! Now for breakfast, ha, wow I'm lame and okay with that :)