:)

tonight was an awesome night and I feel really good about it.

the end.

a survey I say

Ten things I'd like to say to certain people. (but don't say their name)

10. I worry about you and think you are making all the wrong choices.
9. I love you so much and would be so lost and crazy without you.
8. When you die I don't think I'll be able to go on....
7. You disgust me times ten, and it's really hard to pretend that I want to be your friend, when I can't stand the person you've become.
6. You make me so proud I could cry!
5. Stop being so lazy! If not you'll miss out on a lot of things in life.
4. I don't hate anyone, but if I did it would be you.
3. I hate being around you, you're toxic, but I can't seem to quit you.
2. You're great and I miss you a ton!
1. I strive to be more like you.



Nine things about myself.

9. Lately my life has been blah like.
8. Honestly, there are somethings I would redo in life.
7. I am very shy.
6. I wish I could keep contact with all the people I think about on a daily basis.
5. I am afraid to be lonely.
4. I am sometimes disgustingly prideful.
3. I don't trust people easily and am always suspect, it probably is from having people in my life who always lied to me.
2. I can't wait until I can live with my best friend.
1. I have amazing family and friends.



Eight ways to win my heart.

8. Be adorable, at least in my eyes
7. Listen to me complain and whine
6. Play with little kids
5. Make me laugh
4. Be respectful
3. Have integrity
2. Be honest
1. Love Jesus



Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

7. music lyrics, bible verses, or quotes. I actually think in these things a lot, but usually don't share.
6. the future
5. loosing weight
4. my lists :)
3. Friends
2. Family
1. God



Six things I do before I fall asleep.

6. set my alarm
5. set the sleep timer on my tv
4. bring Dwight over to me
3. think
2. flip on my belly
1. relax



Five of your favorites.

5. Language: English, I know it best
4. Website: facebook
3. Sports team: eh
2. Fast food restaurant: Chick-fil-a
1. Thing to do: sit and talk to folks or play games



Four things I'm wearing right now.

4. penguin pajama pants
3. Beaver String Quartet t-shirt
2. blue underpants
1. glasses


Three songs that I listen to often.

3. Bad Romance- Lady GaGa
2. You Can Do Better- Say Anything
1. The Spirit vs. The Kick Drum- Derek Webb



Two things I want to do before I die

2. travel and enjoy other cultures
1. love the people around me the best I can



One confession

1. I could live my life more, but I like the comfort of not striving for more. So I work on fighting this feeling of comfort everyday...

hello there friend. So I haven't really been up to much. Having a rough day, which just means I need to have more fun this weekend. Wow, my blogs have been super short. Well I'm going to go make some fish and sweet potato. :)

2010

Happy New Year friends and foes! So I didn't make a new years resolution this year, but I inadvertently decided to change and improve a lot of thing in my life... hopefully they'll stick and become a life changing thing who knows. I had an okay 2009, thanks to my lovely family and friends. so thanks guys. Here's to a good 2010!

I want your ugly I want your eveyrthing as long as it's free

Man I love Lady GaGa....fact. I had such an amazing day with Abbie! I missed her a lot, lots of fun! Ok I don't really have much else to write. I still need to finish 2 xmas gifts....ha

You know what annoys me? When people say oh let's keep Christ in Christmas!! Seriously? If you go to the orgins of Christmas it was an not holy holiday...where do they think the tree, gifts (Jesus didn't get gifts cos it was his birthday, he got them because he was a KING), singing carols, exchanging cards, and even kissing under the mistletoe, like seriously these are things stolen by the church. I don't understand why people run their mouths without taking like 15 minutes to look up facts.

Yes Christmas is when we remember Jesus' birthday, but we really can't claim it and then to say put Jesus BACK in! ha, he was the spice you add once your taste your food and see that it's gross. Just saying, it annoys me.... It's usually the people who need to remember Christ all the time cos they sure don't act like him ever.

So I'm not being a Grinch, I just hate that as followers of Christ we assume we OWN Christmas! The horrible attitude that freaks out every time someone says "Happy Holidays" or "Seasons Greetings." Just because the holiday is named after Christ, doesn't make it only ours.

We have really borrowed this season with many of its traditions, for the reason to honor the birth of Jesus. ok I'm going to stop my random rant....Christmas is a beautiful time and even if a lot of the tradition was stolen from pagan belief, I'm sure God's cool with that, cos Christmas is all about redemption...

So what I'm just trying to say is that the trees, mistletoe, gifts, and the date aren't the deepest and richest aspects of the celebration of Christmas, or the central symbols of it. And people shouldn't get their panties in a bunch so much and should enjoy family and what as Christmas we remember during this time.

One last thing..."Xmas", X is ancient Greek for Christ! (I mean I learned this my freshman year of college) Come on people all you would have to do google the meaning of Xmas....


Ok I do love Christmas for real I do!! Just sometimes the people annoy me to death!!!

Christmas

Well I'm home for Christmas. It was a really stressful trip home. Stopped at a friends house for some quick conversation, which was a nice blessing. Then to Elma's and then home. Bonding with my brothers and I admit a little homesick for Virginia. I think it's more the lack of drama in Virginia and the peacefulness I just feel there. Weird I know...just saying there's always something negative going on here in PA, something to get riled up about and people who make me hate the human race and wish Adam and Eve were zebras....

oh, we need a little Christmas!

Okay, Merry Xmas fools! I have been having a lot of fun and have been super busy in the process. Still have 2 Christmas gifts to make and I have to pack and yadda yadda yadda. I have an amazing weekend! Went and saw the Christmas light at the beach and to botanical gardens. were amazing. Then Saturday morning went to Williamsburg and then Busch Gardens at night, for fun fun fun fun!!!!! Sunday during Sunday School the fire alarm went off. So Karen and I escorted 10 kids outside in the pouring and freezing rain with no coats!!! We all huddled together for warmth, it was cute, haha. Someone was cooking and not doing such a good job of it, but we had to wait for the fire trucks to come. Then Sunday afternoon Sarah and I went to see A Tuna Christmas, which was hilarous!!! I loved it times ten!!!! v. good Christmas play. Ok, I need to go do something productive....

Why aren't you dating the person you like?
Well, you see...

Can you have more than one best friend?
yeah, but usually one best best friend

How many pairs of Converse do you own?
two? I think

What do you want to get accomplished today/tonight?
I NEED to finish one Christmas gift and put away the air mattress

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
water

Will you have a boyfriend/​​​​girlfriend in 6 months?
Probably not.

Look in your inbox in your phone, who are all the people you have texts?
I deleted my inbox :0

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
Male

Are you a cuddler?
If I like you, I like cuddling.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Maybe.

Do you have any sisters?
Nope.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
ummm the store

Do you have a bestfriend?
yes yes yes

Do you tend to think that you are always right?
I'm always wrong, lol. Always.

What was your favorite toy as a child?
eh I dunno :)

Have you thought more about your funeral, or your wedding?
Lol, probaly funeral

You need new jeans. Where do you go?
the store

Do you play the Sims 2?
No.

What do you think of Maroon 5?
ಠ_ಠ

What do you think of the Jonas Brothers?
ಠ_ಠ

What is your favorite kind of Girlscout cookie?
peanut butter one I guess

What do you hear at the moment?
ncis

Do you watch the Olympics?
I watched it before, but it's not something I really look forward to.

What are your top favorite stores?
The kind of stores that have really nice prices and sales.

Next time you will kiss someone?
I don't know, saturday

Honestly, what is the one thing you need more than ANYTHING right now?
move my butt!

Is there someone you just CANNOT stand?
Yeahhhh.

What were you doing at 2am?
sleep

Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
Sure, in fact I plan to head over to Rochelle's in a few minutes

Is anyone protective of you?
Yes.

Are you any good at math?
yeah

Do you like hugs?
Of course.

How many people do you trust 100 percent?
ummm besides family maybe 2-3 .

Do you want to grow old with someone or be single forever?
I'd like to grow old with someone.

Have you ever liked someone who treated you super shitty?
Yeeep.

What are your plans for tomorrow?
Wake up, go to work, clean and pack, watch ncis

Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
That's horrible.

If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?
Yessss!

Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?
yeah.

Do you think two people can last forever?
Sure.

Would you put yesterday on repeat and live it forever?
No.


If your best friend needed somewhere to stay could they live with you?
yes.

Do you find smoking unattractive?
yes and yes

When is the last time you were at a beach?
Friday

Think back to october were you in a relationship?
Nope

So I was really super sick this week and it really sucked. I hate how am I when I'm sick, I give up, get dramatic, and want to die. Just do maybe it's a good thing those traits only come up when I'm sick, for the most part. Since I've just been laying in bed not much else has been going on. Missed hanging out with some people but I proudly chose my health over fun, which I never do. ever. Today has been good so far, Sunday school, then they had a thank you brunch for us, which I didn't really eat much cos the only meat there I liked was shrimp. But the shrimp was so over spiced I kept gagging a little. That's okay though I already planned to make some rice and asparagus for lunch. I'm going to see the Christmas celebration at church at the 3, and since each one has had about 1,000+ people I'm going to try to go early. Then tonight I probaly won't do much at all, but who knows. Maybe dinner after the play with the ladies. I'm kinda bummed since I'm going home so early for Christmas I'm missing two Christmas parties, oh well guess that's life. So, honestly really nothing else, except I might be a tad addicted to FarmVille.....I swore I would never play but it was so boring lying in bed all week I had to do something. Ok, off to start lunch and put the dishes away! Oh I love this quote!

"It takes quite a spine to turn the other cheek. It takes phenomenal fortitude to love your enemy. It takes firm resolve to pray for those who persecute you." -Rob Bell-

So thankful

So I should update! It has been to long. Thanksgiving came and left...So I didn't get to write the cliche I'm thankful for....post. But I will now.

I'm thankful for my Papa, friend, and constant guide and the random and funny ways he speaks to me.

I'm thankful for my mom and grandparents who are great examples to me and help guide me through life.

I'm thankful for my brothers, who are so unique and bring so much joy to life, I definitely don't know what I'd do without those two!

I'm thankful for my best friend Sarah King, a kindred spirit who I feel so comfortable with, who loves and supports me and is nice to me when I'm a crazy beast.

I'm thankful for the abundance of other deep, genuine friendships I have, which have made my life full and my life transitions easier and more bearable.

I'm thankful that I have a job that brings me joy and allows me to growth and use the abilities God has given me.

I'm thankful I am apart of an amazing church where God's word is spoken to me weekly and I am convicted and encouraged each time I go.

I'm thankful for the twists and turns in life that bring you to places you never thought you could go and for the people that have become a part of my life along the way.

I'm also thankful for every experience and decision I have made. I've been through some great experiences, and I've been through some hard ones. I've made some good decisions, but I've also made some bad ones, but without these decisions or experiences I wouldn't be who I am or where I am today, so therefore I am thankful.

So there you have it, my cliche I'm thankful for post....

you're a blur

Project runway finale!! :D

Poor Carol Hannah is so sick, breaks my heart.

Okay so this has been a crazy week. A little up and down. School has been really great! Most everything else has been one good. Minus one friend being a downer, negative, clingy, and oh so annoying!! Yes, this sounds sad and mean, but I think she needs to go. I don't like drama, so needs to go, sorry. Like Pastor Eric said last Sunday, "Negative relationships in your live need to either change or dissolve.'' Think it will soon be time for me to "man up.'

My one student apologized this week and said, "I'm sorry Ms. Elise. I didn't mean to break your heart." It was precious and made me remember why I love my job. All for those little nuggets.

I wish I had more to write about. Right now I'm going to watch Project Runway and clean out the Dwight's litter box and let him out of the closet. He locked himself in about 20 minutes ago, ha, silly guy.