“Most of us can read the writing on the wall;
we just assume it's addressed to someone else.”
~Ivern Ball
This is how I feel a lot of the time. I just can't believe how blessed and lucky I am. Sometime I'm just like, God why have you given me all this when I'm a crazy crappy sinner, ha. Weird I know. I mean I have great family and friends, what else could a girl want? And what else i do want, I suppose it's not time for me to get! *le sigh*. I dunno I think I've realized lately that I have a strong fear of always being replaced, odd, I know, but I really do... Like people will forget me and go with the newer model. odd, weird, sad, I know...ha.
I took a test from the health and wellness people at work. Even though I'm really fat (duh!) I'm still 75% healthy. So I suppose that's kinda some good/bad news, ha. Made me laugh. I had my one ACE today who is kinda odd. She was trying to talk me into being a foster mom?! Hello I'm 22! She would say something and I'd be like yes but I'm only 22 and I'm single. It was weird, but she's kinda weird too. I told her if I'm still single at 32 then I will definitely consider it, but anytime sooner and single isn't happening. She's Russian, I guess they start baby making and taking at 14.
So nothing else. Sarah King is coming!!! She must be obsessed with me ;) lol. I'm so excited even though I just spent an amazing weekend with her! Also, tonight I had a nice but sad voice mail from an old friend, made me really miss the past and think about how much I took it for granted... Ok, wow it's almost 11. I was waiting to see if Sarah would call, guess she didn't get my e-mail. So I shall read and then sleep, yes in that order.
I definitely understand, I always feel like I'm so blessed that He chose me even though I continue to sin and everything.
ReplyDeleteHey you need to remember it's His time not ours. Work on being content and at peace with waiting and what He has given you now. You won't be replaced, He always has a place for you. And so do I!
Thanks for an amazing weekend.