breaking free

So I've been doing Beth Moore's breaking free devotional and it has been mind-blowing and very overwhelming. We go through life not even realizing all of the things that are keeping us in bondage. Lately I've really been thinking about my family and my past. There's a lot of bad things and a lot of heart break, a lot. But it does not define me, because God is in control, I need live, eat, sleep, and breathe that.

We've also been talking about how in our families we need to do things out of LOVE, not LOYALTY. This has hit me so hard and knocked me to the ground and then some. So many times I don't say anything or support something I really don't approve of, and I used to think I was doing this out of love. Now I realize it was because I was loyal to the person and wanted to show support and not lose that loyalty. But love is so much more important and true. Yes, people will be mad but I'll have peace and God will have control.

There is so much more I could blog about. I really wish Beth Moore was my mom...really do. Lately I've realized the importance of praying for my future children, grandchildren, nieces, and nephews. Praying that they become good Godly people who experience true joy and passion in life. I look at my parents and how sad and self serving their lives are and it just breaks my heart. I don't want that for me. And I don't want that for my future family members. I want generations of people who love God and serve others with that same love! Amazing things have been happening in my heart lately and it is the hardest thing I think I've ever been through mentally and emotionally and it is so worth it, times ten!